자기소외를 경험하는 목회자 아내의 심리사회적 현상연구

A study on the psychosocial phenomenon of pastor’s wives experiencing self-alienation

The purpose of this research is to examine the factors and the phenomena in psychosocial self-alienation in pastor’s wives, and to find the ways to cure, to show the necessity of restoration through reinforcement of their capacity. To this end, in-depth interviews with the seven pastor s wives have been carried out, and the data collected have been analyzed qualitatively according to the phenomenological method of Colaizzi. Research on the participants shows that self-alienation of pastor’s wives is derived from confusion of self-identity relating to expectation of role, from alienation and isolation experienced through malfunction of the original family members, from anger and frustration caused by husband and caused by lack of sexual intimacy with husband, from fear and the feeling of being victimized which were formed in fellowship with others, from loss of right of choice and having no right of decision-making in current life, from maladaptation to the church community and from internalized difficulties in spiritual growth. Negative relationship experiences resulting therefrom gave birth to psychological phenomena of the participants’ fallacy of recognition of others, automatist thinking, negatively personalized thought,maximization or minimization due to confliction and confusion of thought,negative self-image, lack of intimacy, feeling of wretchedness, loneliness,languor, feeling of abandonment, guilty conscience and intensification of distortion of depression and anxiety. And thence a lack of psycho-social substitutionary resources made it hard for the participants to get out of the self-alienation, but aggravated self-alienation instead. The significance of this study consists in having shown that for the reinforcement and restoration of the pastor’s wives who experience psychosocial self-alienation it is necessary for them to have network, have consultation, gain an insight into the self through education of psychology, have spiritual care through words of God and prayer.